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Okay I'm sorry but I'm completely sick of livejournal so this will probably be my last entry for a while. I'll be back another time. LUV YA'LL!
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[26 Sep 2004|06:31pm] |
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OKAY THIS JOURNAL IS OFFICIALLY FRIENDS ONLY!!!
I KNOW I DON'T HAVE A WICKED COOL ICON THING, BUT OH WELL.
IF YOU WANT TO BE ADDED, JUST COMMENT!!
LUV YA GUYS!
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[26 Sep 2004|09:44am] |
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The show is over. *tear*. Last nights performance was kick ass!! The best audience so far, they would clap at times no other audience clapped at. random. My dad liked to show, my stepmom did too, but once again she didnt say good job to me. She has NEVER ever said good job to me at the end of one of my performances or shows. She talks about everything else, but does she compliment me? her stepdaughter? noooooooo. bitch. lol. it's actually funny now, cuz i like to watch and see if she actually says something.
And then there was the bowling party...kinda boring in the beginning. I actually ended up not bowling cuz nobody else really wanted to and i didn't have money to pay for playing. But Kaila was being a buttface and wanted to leave early, so we had to say our goodbyes at 1:00. I bet everyone else stayed till like 3. I'm gonna miss a bunch of those people .... & a bunch of them im not gonna miss.
Well got kaila's going away party today. Pool party...eh. Not in the mood to wear a bathing suit and swim. But good news. She's not leaving till like saturday or sunday, so maybe wednesday or thursday she and her mom are gonna come and take us to applebees for old time sakes. yayaya!
well got to go. ttyl.
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[25 Sep 2004|05:52pm] |
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Okay it's in between shows right now, my dad should be here in like 20 minutes. My mother is fucking pissing me off, but what else is new. I think she hates the fact that my dad is coming with my stepmom and that i'll be spending time with them (my mom is not on good terms with my dad). So anyways, we barely even speak anymore, it's sad really, and when we do talk it's about vacation and her work (im sorry but that get's a little old) for once i wish she was interested in my life. I don't think it's fair for her to be a bitch to me just cuz her boyfriend and her broke up.
But after the show tonight it's the bowling partay!!! Woohoo. It doesnt start till almost midnight so we could be there till 3 or 4 or whenever kaila decides to leave cuz she's my ride. Well gtg. I wonder what my mom's gonna do this time to avoid seeing my dad, go hide in her room, or go next door, or sit on the dock. She thinks i dont know, but i do. W/E. Can't wait till i graduate and can get out of this hell. But i love her all the same.
Toootles.
Kelly.
OH and it's closing night!!! I'm gonna miss the show!!!! But now i get my weekends back. yay. WAIT!....not yay, cuz that means more time with mom. Oh no no no no no no no no. lol. overexageration. lol.
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[24 Sep 2004|06:00pm] |
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Official last day with Kaila at school. It was a good day, lunch was fun, filled with boob lifting pictures that austin got the pleasure of taking, and some good old walks down memory lane. What a corny ass phrase. Well got a show, got to go get ready. & I get to see my daddy on tomorrow! yay! and no austin i'm not gonna ask if he'll get you a deal on a car. lol. i knew what u were thinking. ttya'll later.
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[23 Sep 2004|05:17pm] |
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I started crying again today thinking about Kaila leaving. I havent cried since the night i found out, and realizing that tomorrow is officially her last day at school and sunday is the last day i'll see her till who knows when. I'm so fucking sad that she's leaving, i'm happy for her and everything, but it's not easy having one of ur best friends move away. Hey at least she's not dead or something. It still really hasnt hit me yet. I still think that come monday morning when i get to school she's gonna be sitting in silveira's with chamille and araba like every morning and it'll all just be a joke or a dream. But now i'm gonna stop thinking about it cuz as the mascara runs down my face i realize that crying does no good. This is the time that i wish i had a boyfriend to go and find comfort in...one other part of my life that sucks.
Well that's my story. Cya guys tomorrow.
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[22 Sep 2004|05:51pm] |
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I can't get stupid Jessica Simpson's "Sweetest Sin" song out of my head....ahhhh...and i sound retarded when i try to sing it outloud. I'll just shut up now so i don't provoke the easily induced barking dogs that live on all sides of my house. Well, life is boring. I finally signed up for driving classes at A1!!! Woohoo...1st step to getting my liscense, then...a car!!!...then a job. :(. If all goes to plan i should be getting my permit on my actual half b-day, then get my liscense hopefully on or really close to my actual birthday. Then i can drive myself to school and no more carpooling with those obnoxious kids! In the morning when my mom drives us to school, I sometimes think that she's gonna like pull over on the freeway and just yell at them, i bet she's gotten close since they bug the crap out of her...not saying that they don't bug the crap out of me either.
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[19 Sep 2004|11:44am] |
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Last nights show kicked ass! Great audience...no microphone mess ups...i was hyper beyond reason...about a million hot guys in the audience!!!!!...and lots of candy backstage..Good TIMES baby! Now lets see if todays show is just as good...or better!
Oh and don't u just love the weather?!, but i just wish it would hold off for another 3 weeks, cuz i dont have any warm clothes yet!!! And i'm going shopping when i go to my dads in 3...no wait...2 weeks! Ya thats all...tootalloo.
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[19 Sep 2004|11:19am] |
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I have 0 artistic abilities when it comes to drawing!! I had to draw a self-portrait and it is the scariest thing you will ever see!!! EVER! (good thing i'm not gonna show it to anyone). When i drew the smile, I ended up not drawing teeth b/c when there was teeth it looked like some demented zombie. But maybe that's what i look like (i dunno). Ya but it's pretty sad looking. Thats all. Tootaloo.
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Got a show tonight...not in the moood....wanna sleep...eat....and watch love actually. My mom has been really pissy lately, and we don't really talk that much anymore (well not like we used to). Kaila leaves in a week, i'm dreading that day, i'm gonna miss her so incredible much, four people in a tight group has always been perfect, now it's gonna be two with a tag along third wheel. Most likely i'll be that wheel, i'll be the one that makes it a tricycle. Okay enough with the analogies. It's really cold in my house right now, for some reason my mom has the air cranked up really high. And........thats all. tttyl.
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[12 Sep 2004|11:03am] |
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Okay i'm gonna pull an austin now....PPL leave comments!!!! I feel so alone on this journal. That's all. Tootaloo
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[11 Sep 2004|10:54am] |
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Okay opening night is over!! And I have to say...good show!...even though i almost fell off a platform on top. But all my really good friends came...thanks guys for being there, & and thanks joe for the message on ur arm, i still think you should have raised it up during the show...that'd be funny. I loved how for half of one of my numbers (the whole gospel section) i was dancing on stage right in front of araba and ben, they wouldnt stop smiling at me...which made me smile even bigger. OH!!! &...okay when we were backstage waiting to go on for the gospel, my friend Alex was all there's this really hot guy sitting in the front row on the right with bleached blond hair who keeps smiling at all the girls...and i was all "okay cool i'll look for him" and i didn't think anything of it, and then when i get out there, i look for some really hot guy in the front row, and guess who's the guy?!!.....BEN!! HAHA. that was funny.
Well i'm off...got another show tonight, but no one's coming to that one (to see me i mean), so it won't be quite as fun. Ttyl. Luv ya'll.
Oh and moment of silence for those lost on 9/11....today's the 3 year anniversary if you didnt know.
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SHOW OPENS TONIGHT!!!!!!! Wish me luck!!!!
Haha...while all of you are at school wasting away, learning pointless information, I am here @ my house relaxing and drinking lemonade...ahhhh the life. No im jk. I decided not to go to school today as kinda a mental health day and sleep day so i can be ready for tonight...and i had to get a lot of laundry done. lol. Well here's the update:
Went to the fair on sunday, it was kick ass! (my new fav phrase)
Saw Joe's little kitty's...awwww sooooo adorable!!!!!!!
Named my kitty (not really mine) squirt...she/he is gray with no tail!!
Kaila's b-day was yesterday...happy 15th kaila!
Ya that's bout it. I'll talk to ya'll later...and see some of u tonight at the show! gotta get back to my laundry.
~*~Kelly~*~
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[05 Sep 2004|08:08am] |
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Pretty soon guys i'm gonna make this journal friends only...once i make a cool banner thingy, which i don't know how to do...but i'll figure it out. So if you want to be added, speak now.
State Fair today!! Woohoo!!
& post comments cuz they make me happy!
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[04 Sep 2004|06:28am] |
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Damn it feels like I havent posted in a while. So here's the update. One of my best friends Kaila is moving to LA in a month. She's being signed with an agency to do like pilot series and all that kinda stuff. I'm really sad, i've cried so many times already, I cried like a baby at rehearsals when i found out. But hey I don't care. It's no longer gonna be Kaila, me, Araba and Chamille now...it's just gonna be 3 of us, and you know one's always gonna feel left out. This really sucks! I'm gonna miss her like crazy. But hey at least we get to go visit her down there, and go shopping and all that stuff...and maybe meet orlando!! Woohoo. Now i feel better, lol. But ya, even though I got all my tears out for now, I'm gonna so be crying the day she leaves, and her last day of school here. Why is life such an ass?!
But besides that depressing news, i have rehearsals all day today and the cast potluck! That should be fun...i hope. And tomorrow were going to the state fair! Woohoo...havent gone in like 2 years. However, I really wanted to go thursday to see Maroon 5!...but noooooo...i had damn rehearsals. Well that Bash was last night, it was good, except for the herd of 6th and 7th graders. They're soooo tiny!! But besides that, i guess it was fun. I would have had a better time is araba, kaila and chamille were there the whole time. But nope. However, Kaila and I talked to the jamba juice guy, Danny, he's cool and he recognized us. hehehe. Well picture day = tuesday! ahhhhh!!! Kaila's birthday = thursday...gotta do something special. Opening night = friday! Oh no were not ready! This week = tech week...ummmmm yeah not too excited bout that. I just hope there's not much homework next week.
Well i'm hungry I'm gonna go eat. Talk to ya'll later.
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The weekend went by too fast. Saturday i was at rehearsals for 12 hours, but was probably only on stage rehearsing my numbers for like 5 out of the 12. Kaila and i had a kick ass time making orc faces back stage...soooo much fun. People thought we were crazy lunatics...which made it all the better. Then today finished my costume shopping, starting crying about reasons i'm not gonna say, took a nice nap, and then had a lovely dinner with me momma and jeff. I also bought Dirty Dancing Havana Nights!! Woop Woop...i love that movie. And we rented love actually...which i really want to buy, cuz that is just the cutest darn movie ever. I finally finished all my homework, including that damn book cover for chem. That thing is so pointless...if she wants us to learn about an element i would prefer to write up a report thing on it, not waste my time putting together a book cover.
I'm so excited for next summer, cuz me, my mom, jeff and jeff jr. (his son...lol) are going to mauii! And get this were all gonna scuba dive (jeff and jeff are gonna learn) and me and jeff jr. (he goes by jeff just so ya know) are gonna learn to surf!! AND.......my mom and jeff are gonna spend one night together on some other island called the "lover's island". So over that night me and jeff jr. have the condo to ourselves...oh and did i mention that he's 21 and really really cute?! *gets a grin on face* this should be fun. lol. Don't worry nothing's gonna happen. *says in the english accent like kaila* i'm soo excited!
Anyways, on opening night of BOB, jeff and jeff (i hate how they have the same name!) are coming...and get this...it's so nice...jeff jr. doesn't live in sacramento, he lives like 2 1/2 hours away somewhere, and he's actually taking time off work to come and see my show opening night, and we've only met once! I think that's so sweet. I mean it's one thing to drive that far, it's another thing to actually request time off of his job. I feel special. I just hope they're not too dissapointed in the show and the lack of good numbers i'm in. Well that's all my news for now. See ya'll tomorrow...ugghhh...don't want to go to school tomorrow. But oh well tootaloo.
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[26 Aug 2004|07:39pm] |
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Ugghhh...too much homework! Good thing a lot of it is due monday...i know what i'll be doing now in between rehearsals on saturday. OOOOOOO....in my digital 1 class we get to make the posters for all the productions at school...and so now our assignment is to make a sketch for Blithe Spirit and whoever has the best one will get to create the poster. I would love to be chosen! So far i only have a little bit in my sketch...i'm not gonna say what it looks like though (its a surprise)...but i hope it looks really awsome...and i hope i can get past my horrible drawing skills. To draw a good picture it takes me like 3 hours. Good thing i'm a dancer. Anyways, besides that school is school...nothing special. But why may i ask do all the teachers turn the air conditioning up soooo high?! I mean sure it may be slightly warm outside, but not enough to make it 50 degrees in the room for a whole hour! And the teachers really don't get what it means when ur sitting there rubbing ur arms furiously and looking frozen. Hmmm...maybe to them that means ur concentrating hard. lamo's. Well...talk to ya'll later.
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Wow..okay today was halarious in mr.silveira's room...full of tear inducing laughter and dried plums...i'm not gonna explain the whole thing, you would have just had to be there to experience the oddness. But I can tell you that my new nickname to mr.siveira is ms.plum or just plum or something like that. ???. Long story. Anyways today was pretty boring...i miss lunch with me buddy's, it feels like i've only eaten 2 lunches with them...cuz i've had like 3 student council meetings already at lunches. Don't get me wrong i'm still glad i'm in it...but it isn't as exciting as expected...but very informative...i know things all ya'll dont. mwahahahahaha. lol. Well not much happenin right now in my life...just the show which feels like it'll never start and end...i really want it to end cuz it's kinda a waste of time...even though i have fun, i'm not in any really awsome numbers, the most real dancing i get to do is a leap (and i'm in the back for that)...and it's just not as good as i thought. But too late to drop out now, unless i brake my leg or something *crosses fingers* lol jk. But if i think about it, if i broke my leg, it would not be a large loss to the show at all...just requires a little rearranging. And now i'm kinda wishin i was in dance co. just cuz i really want to be now even though it's not the greatest thing in the world and i find a lot of things wrong with it...but it seems "fun" and i really want to go to new york! Well gtg to rehearsals :(...talk to ya'll later. Cya.
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I've been kinda depressed lately...not at school, but everytime i'm home i always begin to feel sad. It's like at school all my problems go away (except for lame ass teachers like *mr.brown*) cuz i'm with all my friends and i can escape from being alone with my thoughts. But once i finish my homework and there's nothing really to do, I start to think about things and i get sad about stuff and irrated at people for making me feel this way without knowing it. There's one thing that I keep on thinking about that only one person knows (chamille)and I hate myself for keep thinking about it and feeling what i feel. I know i'm not making much sense here, but I just can't say what it is to other people. It kinda goes with some of the things in my last post like "not being able to tell people how you feel" and that "people really know how to brake ur heart without knowing that they're doing it". But I can't sit here and blame it on this person cuz it's not their fault at all...you can't make someone feel something that they don't, and it's kinda hard for a person to know that they're braking your heart without even knowing how you felt about them. Okay well you most likely don't want to sit here and listen to my ranting about the crap in my life...so i'll leave it here. Talk to ya'll later. Cya
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Okay random things that have been going through my mind that i can't put into continuous sentences...
Why is life so god damn complicated?!
People just love to see you fall.
Guys can be the most lamest ass creatures that walked the planet. (no offense guys)lol
People really like to lead you on and then watch your heart brake...even if they don't know they're doing it.
Why is everyone so afraid to tell the truth about something...especially their feelings for another (this includes me...very much)
When you hesitate to do something...by the time you get the courage to do it, it's gonna be too late.
There's always gonna be one person that you care about more than they care about you. Which is hard.
You'll never be good enough for yourself.
The things you dream about or daydream about will never happen...and in chamille and I terms (situations will never come true) and by thinking about them you just put urself up for pain.
Okay these are my random thoughts.....yup yup. Talk to ya'll later.
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